September 22, 2015

Last night I saw Ryan at Dallin’s mission call opening. I was so angry at him. It’s weird, my sadness has turned to anger, but I guess that’s better than being sad all the time??!? I don’t know. Maybe not. I think it’s just a sign that I’m dealing with it. He kept trying to talk to me and I just completely ignored him. I just don’t feel like I need to be his friend and I don’t want to be. It’s too painful. I might not have been the kindest to him, but for the first time in years, I finally stood up for myself!! For so long I have just caved to his every needs..even when he is mean to me, but not anymore! I am starting to stick up for myself.