November 16, 2015

I worked so hard at work today! It was so busy, my goodness. It’s really nice when there is a lot to do...I feel more accomplished! It’s gotten so much better at work because I actually know what I’m doing now! I used to hate it at the beginning because I had no idea what I was doing, but now I am very well versed in the production of the company and office. I feel like I am actually making a difference now. I am proud of myself because I had to work hard to get here and to feel that way! I also spent time with Dallin today. I really love him so much. He is really nervous to leave on his mission...I can tell. I am trying to help him feel more comfortable with the idea of serving because it really is so great!

November 15, 2015

I woke up this morning very sick! I literally couldn’t get out of bed. I had to miss church, which was upsetting. I really hate missing the Sacrament. It’s weird how sick I get sometimes, but my body just shuts down. I think it’s my body’s way of saying, ‘SLOW DOWN!’ So that’s what I’m trying to do. I am just trying to focus on the necessities instead of trying to do everything at once! I think I will actually get a lot more done and be healthier if I do this!

November 14, 2015

Okay! Do you ever have those days when all your friends are busy and you literally have nothing to do!?! Seriously it seems like all of my friends were either out of town or on dates and I was just....at home, by myself! I felt like such a loser. Usually in this situation, I would’ve just felt sorry for myself and stayed home, but I decided to make something of my night! I got a few of my other friends who I don’t know as well together and we hung out. I actually had a great night and I am so happy that I made an effort to be social. I am just a lot happier when I am with other people. Seriously.

November 13, 2015

Today I decided to be happy. I decided to feel okay with my life instead of wishing it was anything but what it was. I have been kind of sad lately just because everything is turning out so differently than what I thought, but I am trying to be patient. I have had so many experiences where I have had to learn the elasticity of life. Matt and I decided that we weren’t going to give us a try. He needs to figure some stuff out with a girl that is coming home from a mission in December. It’s really too bad because I think that we would make a great couple, but I just have to trust. I know that Matt is a good guy and he is just trying to make a right decision. I have to respect his agency...I would want him to do the same for me if I were in his position.

November 12, 2015

TODAY I FOUND OUT THAT MATT HAS FEELINGS FOR ME! WHAT! We served together on our mission, but we actually met our Freshman year of college! We just really bonded on the mission, but I never thought of him as anything more than a friend. Then....I FOUND OUT HE LIKES ME!?!? I found out from my friend who talked to him and I completely freaked out because it was so out of the blue! I decided that there were two things I could do: I could ignore it, or I could say something about it. And since I am striving to be more true to myself and confident...I decided to say something to him. I did it! I called him and told him to talk to me about it and we did! I don’t know what’s going to come of this, but I’m just glad that I said something. I just couldn’t regret not ever saying anything, you know!?

November 11, 2015

Today is my Dad’s birthday! Kathryn and I put together a gift for my dad. It was honestly very sweet! So every night, my dad sends goodnight texts to all his kids who live away from him. Sometimes it’s a simple, ‘I love you’ or sometimes he makes funny comments on what’s going on in our lives. Tonight, he sent me a text telling me to keep my head high. I just love my Dad. He really inspires me to be better. It’s cool how such a simple thing has made such a difference in my life. That is something that he has helped me to understand- to just do the little things! Small steps bring about great changes!

November 10, 2015

Today I learned the importance of work. I have been so out of control of my life, and the last two days, I finally feel in control! My name is Emily Jones and I have control of my life. And the best part is, I didn’t do anything out of the ordinary to feel this way. I just made a conscious effort to do what I can and to use all my time productively and I can report that it paid off! Instead of busting my butt to get everything done at the last minute or letting things in my life slide, I actually stayed on top of everything. Even though I didn’t do what I wanted (ie. take a nap or watch a movie) I feel better more fulfilled and more happy. Isn’t ironic that when we put off the natural man and suppress our carnal desires that we ended being more pleased and happy with our lives? I felt that today. I am happy to be re-learning this again. I first learned it on my mission, but I lost my mojo.