September 15, 2015

I will be honest, today has been very difficult for me. I found out that Ryan is dating a girl from his mission. A week ago, he asked me to hang out and then I NEVER heard from him. I was so devastated when I found out that he had a girlfriend. It’s like everything inside of me just died. I have loved Ryan for so long and he is all that I’ve ever known. Him having a girlfriend has been a very big wake up call. I’ve been so angry at him though because of how it’s all happened. Ever since he got home, he treated me as if we would get back together and he made such a point to see me just to date someone else! I just don’t understand. I feel so sad. I don’t think I’ve ever felt so much heartbreak in my life.